Today was hard. It was hard from the get-go. My one group of students has a more heavy energy than the other group and as soon as those few students enter my classroom, I can feel the positive, joyful energy start to leave my body.
I always take a deep breathe and greet them with an enthusiastic, “Good morning, ________, how are you?” And every single time, the response is dismal or I don’t get a response at all.
I didn’t realize how much energy I was expending to compensate for the heavy energy that was coming through my door, but today I felt it. I am exhausted, truly exhausted. This year has tested all of us and I’m in need of a break… 6 more teaching days, I think to myself.
After having not been in the classroom for 3 years, I forgot how impacted I can be by the mood or energy my students’ bring. I remembered today. I remembered today that I, too have to dig deep and employ my own strategies to get through a hard day. I remembered today that it’s hard for them too, even though everyone always says how resilient kids are. I remembered today that it’s ok to shut the engines down and just have a heart-to-heart to help us all get back on track. And most importantly, I remembered today that tomorrow is a new day and it’s ok to to rest so that I can be my best self for my students’, no matter what.